Spoiler Alert: An existential crisis happened
Hello, it’s C again! I know this entry is old news, since I started a new semester three weeks ago, but I wanted to tell you my experience. Enjoy!
Soo, my Fourth Semester was a mess and It finished on June, so I need to tell you all what happened but let’s rewind and start from the beginning. I didn’t enroll in all of my classes that were assigned for this semester, there was this one specific class that I didn’t, it was about film making and I wanted to take it in person, because last semester we were still on online classes.
By the end of the semester I only had two classes, one of those classes was about Photography and I loved it. I loved it so much that I started reconsidering my life goals. Do I still want to make movies? What if Im better at photography than making films? Am I just overthinking everything?
As timed passed this question about what I wanted to do in the future couldn’t get out of my mind, added to that the director of my career in college said that everyone who didn’t enrolled the class about film making would have to do one semester more because they didn’t offered the class in the summer, and with that news a whole existential crisis began.
I started feeling like all of my life plans and goals were crumbling, I was feeling really down. I didn’t want to do another semester and not graduate with some friends, may I add that there are like 30 people in my position and the college decided that they didn’t want to open the class in the summer. I also didn’t know what I was going to do in the future, I was seeing all my friends, all the people in my major knowing what they wanted to do, and I didn’t, I felt like I didn’t have a path.
I also felt like I was frozen in time, I had seen how so many friends had started relationships, new friendships, getting jobs, but I wasn’t doing any of those things, I was just where the beginning of the pandemic left me.
I was in a really bad headspace at the end of the semester, but while bad things crossed my mind, my grades and projects were amazing. I loved the photos that I took, especially the ones in my final project, it was an advertising campaign for a friend’s small business.
My fourth semester was mess, but it was kind of a cool mess. Now that Im in a better headspace, the semester was full of cool experiences and great things were developing in my personal life, but more about that soon!
Anyway, hope you liked this entry and see you in the next one!!!!